Recently I got to thinking about what defines me. What is it that really defines who I am and makes me feel happy and fulfilled. What defines you?
For as long as I can remember it was always my work. Becoming a dancer and then a teacher and choreographer was the most important thing to me and really shaped my life. I left my roots in the north east many years ago and came to London to follow my dreams and for better opportunities. I love it and have built a great life here but having no family around isn't always easy.
Being self employed and choosing a creative career comes with sacrifices and not always the stability of a career such as being a solicitor or a doctor or any 9-5 job. I've been judged many times for not having a 'proper job' and when you feel vulnerable you question yourself and your worth. Recently I felt this very strongly and questioned what I was doing, if I was good enough and was I even successful. I'm sure many of you can relate to that. We are only human after all and it's impossible to feel amazing about ourselves all of the time.
Then something happened. I had a great day at work and suddenly remembered why I do what I Do and that where I am in life is ok. I was overcome with happiness and relief and the doubt and vulnerability and care of what others thought melted away. My work, my relationship, my friendships and most importantly how I feel about myself is what defines me.
For some people it's a career. For some it's family or Charity work or A creative hobby. What matters most to everyone is being happy and being able to hold your head high and know you're doing the very best you can. We should support, help and encourage each other and not judge or criticize. No good ever comes from that.
Whatever it is that defines you or make you happy do it unafraid and with passion.
Love and light
Emily x
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